I've had many opportunities that I otherwise wouldn't have had. But at the same time I was always scared, scared and confused about what was happening. By being there, you are not told what is happening to you and your case. You won't know until it's decided. People try to understand what it feels like, but you can't. Trying to understand what is happening and how a person feels and thinks while they are in that place is like trying to understand how a mother feels who has lost her child. You can never really know if you haven't been there