The thought of knowing the structure of the human mind intrigued me. I saw a path to understanding how resilient yet fragile the mind could be and what events pushed it to one extreme or the other. We were 18-24 years old and suffered from Stockholm syndrome; we developed respect and admiration for our abuser. Even though we all performed together, for some the change was more difficult. I and others quickly developed the alpha male mentality where we strived to be the best of the 52. Why did this only happen to some? Why did some people let fear take over and defeat them? Learning more about the process in which we can be controlled or what shaped our personality inspired me to take a psychology course. The description stated that it would include lessons on personality development. This also caught my interest. In my last career, while I was in training, we completed the True Colors personality test. I learned that I was deep orange with a blue blind spot. Orange is defined as witty, charming, spontaneous, impulsive, generous, impactful, optimistic, eager, bold, physical, immediate, fraternal. I read this description and it nailed my personality. Those 12 words sum me up. Yes, there are variations here and there, but the 12 words nail it